April 2010
1 post
How good can I be? How far can I actually go before I decide to settle or am worn down? I feel like I have an endless well of ambition and drive that is serving no purpose at the moment, and its threatening to make my heart explode. I realized that for so long I was just kind of coasting, letting other people do everything for me because it was what they wanted and it was easier to just agree with...
March 2010
10 posts
The things that will henceforth be receiving my attention are as follows:
1. fitness- Continue running, swimming, etc.
2. finances- Make that money and save that money! Ive got places to go
3. school- Goes without saying, its necessary to get the fuck out of here.
4. girls- Thats right, I really need to get out there again and start talking to some ladies. Im tired of all this single, lonely...
Meh.
So every morning when I wake up, for the past two weeks, the first thing on my mind is how much I miss this girl. Followed quickly by the second thought of “too bad she never wants to talk to you again.” Its pretty lame, its like waking up in the middle of a rollercoaster drop. My stomach and my heart spend the first ten minutes of the day in my throat. After that though, Im usually...
Man oh man, I have been such an emo bitch lately lol. I think today I finally came to grips with what I am going to have to do. The key I know now, is my friends. One of my friends told me they are glad they met me today, and it made me feel..relieved.No more moping! I have friends that care about me, and want to help me:).
Part of me hopes youll read this but i know you...
Today was alright, not any better than any other day has been lately. I woke up, once again facing the realization that she doesn’t want anything to do with me. This recurring revelation has been hitting me in the face like a cold bucket of ice water, always shocking, rarely pleasant, and usually one time is enough. However, I just can’t seem to make myself forget about her, I...
You took my heart yeah how was its beat?
Did it change at all as you stamped it under your feet?
Isn’t sweet? this love that makes us complete when you realize that what we had was never unique
You’re a dime a dozen and maybe so am I, but the fact of the matter is that we would always try, and nothing used to limit that, not even the sky. oh, we could fly
But you threw it all away,...
Sometimes I think my biggest fear is that I dont have anything figured out. That all my dwelling is just a futile attempt to hide cover up the fact that nothing is certain, and really every one thing that we know is rooted in 10 million things that we dont. So what is there to figure out really? What is so important, so absolute that we have to fight over it? In the end, what we have aren’t...
SO. FUCKING. LAME.
Have you ever been forgotten about? Has anyone ever just said that they want you to just leave them alone? Have you ever given your heart and soul, mind and body to someone only to be crushed?
Well thats essentially what has happened to me, and you know what? I actually think that it is kind of funny. I mean beneath all of this bullshit and pain that I feel right now, I actually think it is...
